HatingPeople Can be Enjoyable

Tonight was the first night of SAST (Short Attention Span Theater) and i am the SM (Stage Manager) / production manager (ish ish) in short i was in charge of the whole thing 11 yes 11 different shows. just a note half of them never showed up for their rehersals. Well it went really really well only one show was messed up. But any ways. This one person on my crew who we shall call Tom just so they have a name. Well he is in not only the drama 4 class but also the tech class on my crew. So yes he knows all the shows but he did not know the tech cues. So he believes he is all high and mighty and doesn't need to come to rehersal cause he is just sound. HA HA HA . I say come to rehersal stupid head! I do believe that by the end of the show tonight i really am enjoying the fact that i hate him even though i shoudn't enjoy it but i do it's odd. But really is it possible to enjoy the fact that you hate some one? Right now i do believe it is possible because by hating him and leting him know that i feel that really relives me and all the stress of the production goes away. But yes i know that later i will regreat acting this way to him even though it relives my stress it will most likely just cause more stress later when he decides to act that way towards me. So in answer to my question, it is possible to enjoy hating someone but it will just come back and bite you in the ass sooner or later so for everyone who may read this just know that it is not always a good idea to tell people you hate that you hate them so you should learn from my mistake.

Drama Teens Lives

In drama 4 there term project thingy ish was to write a play and then they are being preformed by the drama 3 and 4 kids. I found out today that i am the SM (stage manager) yeah and they are in a week but i will be ok and handle it. But anyways i just finished reading the scripts of a few of them and most of the shows are based off personal experiences. Well more than 65% i guess ish are really depressing and are about death, drugs, depression, players, etc. It's depressing! and to top it all off one of the people you would never think would be in a situation like such has one of the most depression plays. Why do people hide their feeling? I do believe that one reason all people but expecially teens hide it is because they want to fit in with others and be happy with others. They act happy so people wont ask questions about what wrond and such. This is one reason i am very worried for most of my friends. Here where i am highly involved in drama and so are all my friends i know that they can act and hide it and are really good at it. So in answer to my question people hide feelings to fit in and to not stand out as the depressed kid who may just go kill them self tonight. But i guess it is just how the brain works.

Pictures

Can a picture really say a million things? Take this picture for instance. When we took this picture i was angry and just wanted the whole world to be shot in the head so i could watch it bleed to death. Is that what this picture says? Most people that have looked at it think that i am really happy and my boyfriend is the who i am looking at. In reality it is quite the opposite i was looking into space trying not to look at casey who really was making me angry and depressed. Also does me, who always has my hair in a pony tail, having my hair down have a sexual meaning? At least to me it does not it means to me that my hair tie broke cause of casey. In the end though i do believe that pictures can tell a million words they may not always be the words or thoughts of the person in the picture telling the "story" but they do tell stories.

Cheating

Why do people cheat? Some people are so obcessed with winning they will do anything to win including cheating. Sorry to say but yes i was apart of this act of "cheating" but really could it be called cheating? This last few days we were at shakespeare competition in cedar city, Utah. It was really fun, full of drama, but hey we are drama people at a drama competition. Well anyways, in the tech olympics every team was cheating. This year they did not have it garded or anything you could just walk on in it was cool. so i don't really know if i actually cheated or not but that is kinda becides the point. The one thing that i decided really bugs me about cheating is when you cheat with a full out plan just so you can win. Mountain view high school Utah has won four years in a row and this year would have been our fifth except that mountain view mesa half ass cheated and won. the tech olympics is all about the fastest time you can do your event. There are six events: Audio, Rigging, Costumes, Props, Construction, and Lights. Mountian view mesa in every event tried their hardest to get as much done in 30 sec and and then call time and just take all the penealty times. Whith this they won. they really didn't even try that hard to win if you think about it but yet they did it kinda really makes me angry. It was not full out cheating but close enough. it was "half ass cheating". Does a trophy really mean that much? But still i think that they cheated just so that they could steal our golden makita trophy and that it was really the only way that they could have won it cause they suck! people cheat so that they can believe that they are better then someone else or another group of people and then rub it in their faces. I still must say a silver spot light is really cute and adds to our colection and we did a kick ass job! well done every body!I Love you all our team rocked all the socks off all the people!

Superman the Musical

Why is it when some shows end it's a happy ending and others it's a sad one? For example Superman the musical. I can't wait for it to be over. It's not that i hate the people in the cast or crew or that we don't have fun i just want it over. Where like other shows such as peter pan this summer was really fun and i didn't want it to end. I think that the reason that some shows just need to end is because there is never anything intresting that happens in the show and it has no real meaning anymore to you becides that you get money. Where there are other shows that yes you get money for working them but it's also fun and you have more then one job to do for the show or the the one job you have is chellenging. That is why i believe some shows don't want to end and others just need to be finished and over with.

I like Mic Problems

When there is a mic problem why is it that when i am back stage i sorta enjoy it but when i am the board opp. i hate hate hate hate it? Ever since we enven started rehersals for superman the musical with me being the board opp and kendall (my "half brother form another mother") being back stage i have just wanted to switch back to haow it used to be. For the past two years it has always been kendall on board and me as his assistant. When being the assistant you get that chance to be backstage, do mic changes, set changes, fix mic problems, hang out with the actors, and do homework stuff. Where as when you are running the board that is what you do and that is it nothing more or less you just sit there supermansthis big chair turning mics on and off and making it sound good and all that and telling others to go run around and fix things. I think the reason that i hate it when a mic breaks during the show where i am the board opp there really is nothing i can do to fix it i just have to hope it gets fixed. Where when i am the sound asst. i am the one in control making sure that it gets fixed and how long it takes and such. I like to be the one in control and getting to run around and have fun multi-tasking and such.

Competition is it worth it?

Why do schools have to be so competive? Why does everyone care about winning? How does something that you would think would not be a sport like competition become one just so people can say they are the best and #1? Why must we win tech olympics again and again and again. How did tech turn into a sport but not get the pe credit? For me I love tech it is my life, my dream, my goal but really what will it do for me? This is my first year not actually being a important part of the team. I am only a jr. yes but even in jr.high orem high came and asked me to be on the team and i was team captain of orem highs team last year but now here at mountain view i am only the alternate? He tells me i must be better then everyone on the team at there events but i am the smallest one and have to learn every event and be just as good or better. They are all specialests and get to only work on that event. is it really worth it to be to fall behind and stress out lose sleep and get sick just to make criman happy? Well anyways from this i know i am getting lots of good experience and confidence but i am kinda scared what is going to happen when we are down there. i guess the answer to my questions is that with out having something to get out of it like a trophy or experience what are we all really going to learn from it. High school is about meeting new people, discovering your self, learning, and kicking the other teams butt just cause you know you can!

Can Fun and Work Be the Same Thing?

Is it even possible for work to be something you enjoy doing not a chore? I enjoy very much going to work, I know it's odd but i really do. While i am at work i get to learn things that not only help me get ready for my career, but i also learn things that help me emotionally, mentally, and physically. By lifting heavy objects i build my muscle strength, and by interacting with many different kinds of people i learn how to control how i act around those i can stand and those i can not. I have noticed that many of my friends will do anything to get out of work and they really dred going and wish to leave as soon as possible. Why is this? Why do people always pick a job they know they will not enjoy. Why not from the start try to get a good job doing something that you will enjoy and that will actually help you in the future. how is flippin burgers at a burger joint going to help you better your self and get you prepared for life in the future when you are in control of your self. I really do believe that fun and work can be the same thing if you make the right choices on where you want to work, if you try hard to get a job there, ifyou always have a good attitude while your there, you work hard, and make it a fun joyfull experience. Get some of your friends to work there with you and if thats not an option make friends with the people there hang out with some of them out side of work. From watching my job experience and others i have come to this conclusion. even if you are just flippin burgers you still can make it fun every thing in life should be fun!